Tuesday, January 8, 2019

THE BAGGAGE CARRIERS OF BLOOMING GLEN




Good people.  All of them. 

They’ve been coming together for over two centuries,
teaching each other’s children to pray,
eating pancakes,
painting walls,
gathering at the river,
delivering chicken pot pies,
affirming spending plans,
and lifting four-part harmonies about the Shepherd who faithfully and repeatedly returns their wandering spirits when they choose the road heading off into forsaking His ways territory. 

Today is no different.
It has happened again…as it tends to do….
A crossroad has presented itself.

The world is loud
and there are entirely too many opportunities
to hear it and to see it.
The opinions and disagreements outside
the meetinghouse doors have begun to seep in. 
It isn’t because the windows and doors are not secure. 
The trustees have certainly seen to that. 

Rather…the swirling unsettling outside unpleasantries
came slithering right inside
in the most ordinary kinds of ways.

It crept in on the soles of their shoes.
It dripped off the edges of their Totes umbrellas,
entering the sacred space on the shoulders of their coats.

Coats which ironically hanged on old wooden hangers…
companionably side by side.

Most insidious of all…it entered by lingering in the hearts and minds
of those who spoke displeasure to themselves and to each other. 
In ways that felt innocent. 
With whispers, eye-rolls, and knowing nods.
Always directed safely
toward sympathetic like-minded voices, eyes, and ears.

Disgruntled murmurings grow into words that way. 
The words…before you know it…become unease. 
And torch-bearing unease…
almost always…
rolls swiftly into division.

They…over there.
We…over here.

Good people.  All of them.

And so, they sat…
poised in their usual pews…
Both sides holding tight
to their personal interpretation of scripture…
Both sides turning to page 567 and singing with zeal
about their own firm foundation as a saint of the Lord…

Half of them
cringing at their perception of a word they wish had not been said.
The other half
straining their ears and growing discouraged
as they listened for a word they hoped to hear.
Neither half proficient at hearing the words
actually spoken.

In time, the inside of the meetinghouse
began looking like the outside of the meetinghouse.
People were lining up on one side, or the other.

And people were bringing their baggage to church.
There were boxes everywhere,
getting mixed up with the bags headed to FISH
and the suitcases headed to Honduras.

Some people
liked to fold everything into their boxes to keep things safe.
The way it’s always been done needed to be tucked in tight.
Hymns were placed securely into the bottom corners
so nobody would change the tune
or try to project them onto a screen for singing “off the wall.”
Old Testament verses were layered one atop the other and squeezed in firmly.

Other types of folks
thought the boxes were meant to be stood upon
as one collected signatures for a petition.
They were painting their boxes pink
or crafting them with rainbow stripes.

Some wanted to carve up the boxes
and ship them overseas to be used as something else, altogether.
They felt the boxes should be flipped over on their sides
and used instead as chairs
to widen the reach of the table.

Jesus didn’t have a lot to say about boxes (in particular),
but he made very firm statements
about the way these baggage handlers are supposed to be interacting
with one another.

I’m pretty sure he would be situated somewhere in the middle.

Encouraging people on both sides
to start picking up each other’s boxes.

And not just stand there…stone still…
stoically holding the weight of it
for merely the look of community.
But lifting that cumbersome thing
with one’s whole heart.
(Complete with paint colors they would never have chosen.)

Helping a brother or sister
with whom they totally disagree…
to carry those boxes
for a long and uncomfortable winding way.

Inviting other baggage handlers for the journey.

Jesus would likely be reminding us
to love one another first.
And maybe start sorting out which words we should be using
once we are again engaged in serving others.

Next-door and around the world.
Side-by-side.

It always comes down to free will.
We have choice about which road to take.
We get to choose what kind of baggage carrier we want to be. 
We can decide to be lazy.
Just close our eyes and carry our own bags and boxes…
the ones we’ve used for years. 
The comfortable boxes.

We rarely see our own scuff-marks. 
Hardly notice all the ways our bags can slow us down. 
They tend to get heavier all the time and can cost us a fortune
(and not just at the gate when we end up having to check them). 
Our bags can anchor us in a stagnant apathetic faith.
Our bags can keep us from running ahead to engage with others. 

We can choose to carry the boxes
of only the people who think like we do.
We can schedule breakfast meetings,
phone calls,
infuriated text messages,
and parking lot conversations
to perpetuate our own opinions and wills.

Or we can look past disagreement,
discomfort,
and political party.
Straight into the eyes of our brothers and sisters.

We can lift the burden
of someone else.
Which almost always
lightens our own load
along the way.

My friend, Bob, reminded me that
"Apologizing doesn't always mean you are wrong and the other person is right.  It means you value your relationships more than your ego." 

The group about which I write stands a better chance than most
at remembering friendships,
holding hands,
overcoming hurt,
and finding unity
in the midst of differing opinion.

Because they’ve got an anchor
infinitely more sufficient
than their own unwieldy boxes and other baggage.

In every rough and stormy gale,
their anchors are deeply embedded
and holding within the vale.

Good people.
All of them.




Brenda Shelly (who indisputably writes about herself in these phrases, too)
Blooming Glen Mennonite Church
January, 2019

Sunday, November 19, 2017

BE QUIET





I stirred from sleep just as the sun considered making its daily climb. 


If I was going to make the most of daybreak, the time was now. 





I peeked through the ivory blinds. As though also emerging from their cozy slumber, morning colors began painting the lowest points of the horizon.





















My shower would have to wait.








Brisk air met my sleepy cheeks as I left the warm cocoon of the retreat center. 



I was thankful, again, for spontaneously buying myself that steel blue hat. Knitted by someone with fingers nimbler than mine, the hat had practically jumped into my purse and opened my wallet at the Souderton Art Jam. My face was cold but my ears were happy!  




Temperatures started plummeting as we arrived the first evening. 




When we described the night as "chilly," Sister Anastasia informed us we were using an Americanized word. We were indoors but Sister Lucy was still wrapped like an enchilada in fabrics designed to keep the cold at bay.  She nodded and smiled enthusiastically to pretty much everything and anything. These women were joy personified. 

The retreat center sits atop a little hill near the convent. Naming some other confusing terminology they'd heard, the language of the States was deemed nonsensical. Both nuns were born in Tanzania and raised with the English diction of proper Brits. Confusing word usage aside, the two could not have extended a warmer welcome. We felt embraced.


This lovely lady is Sister Anastasia.  She drops pearls of wisdom as easily as she shares smiles.


The morning's slippery pathway to the woods held a surprising layer of delicate ice. The frost made the leaves crunchy-wet, causing a cacophony in my ears. 

I would be the only human in sight for over an hour and the sound from my boots was entirely too clamorous for such a sacred and glorious dawn. 



I fruitlessly willed my eager feet to hush.








There is nothing 
like a silent retreat 
to heighten the senses.  












Setting myself apart for some deliberate solitude is the closest I come to acknowledging the vast holiness around me. 









God's presence is everywhere. 

Seeping into every nook and cranny. 

Lighting up the darkest corners.  

Gathering loose ends into tidy bundles of suddenly manageable parcels. 

Reasonable little packages I can hand off to someone remarkably more fit to carry them. 




It seems so obvious, here in the quiet of the convent grounds. 

Yet our self-inflicted human agenda makes devotion to the still small voice nearly impossible when competing sounds begin to vie for attention.


Four rather imposing deer foraged just a short distance from my path. 

They stopped snacking long enough to scrutinize my presence in their woods. 




The small buck tilted his head and considered me as though he, too, was smitten with my fabulous blue hat! 





Fretting that they might regard hunters with the same foolish curiosity, I sharply advised that they move along. They took my suggestion at once, their impossibly fluffy white tails waving a fanciful goodbye. The sound of my voice startled me a little bit too, after so much silence.







There are so many needs weighing on my heart as I lift my eyes above the trees. 

My journey feels encumbered by the heavy load. 



Sometimes blessings come and our burdens are lifted. 

We find we can breathe again. 

But sometimes we pray and pray...and the pain remains. 

There is no release. 


When we humble ourselves and ask, however, we are gifted with his presence.  An unfailing strength, helping us to endure as life's trials rage around us. 

That much is promised. 

We do not walk alone.   




However dubious I sometimes feel about the way prayer changes the unfolding of events, I have been shown clearly that prayer changes me. 

Reconnecting myself to God through gratitude and petition serves as a great reminder of my dependence. 

Some would label my reliance a weakness. 

But my heart begs to differ. 

My greatest freedom comes from fully trusting.

One of my favorite authors, Manning, says it like this.  "We are so caught up in what is urgent, we have overlooked what is essential." 




It is essential today for me to be quiet. 

It is as important as breathing for me to escape for a time from the noise and distraction to cultivate silent communion with God. 

It restores my soul to be still.



The temperature warmed a bit as I returned from my time of walking. The colors of the sky were no longer evident as I searched my winter coat pocket for the key.  


Dorine was not dissuaded by the raindrops.



A steady but gentle rain which would persist for the remainder of the day was just forming in the clouds above. All afternoon, the soothing rhythm would be a calming cadence outside the window of my cozy room.






Popping open a bottle of tea before jumping in the shower, the metal cap drew my attention as it dropped with a clunk onto the table in my bedroom. Rolling around its rim a couple of times, it called to me with its tinny little voice. Finally resting, the lid's message made me smile.


"One does not discover new lands without consenting to lose sight of the shore for a very long time." 

Indeed.

Dear friends coerced to meet their own silence. 



Close your eyes. 

Breathe in deeply, inviting God's mercy.  

Breathe out your weary thoughts. 

They weigh too much. Let them go.


Fill your lungs again, allowing His peace to 
infiltrate every fiber of your being. 

Exhale your fears and doubts. 
Those things that keep you up at night and make 
your weary heart race. 

They have no power over you if you do not permit 
them to take up residence in your too-cluttered mind. 




Inhale the absolute acceptance of your creator. 

He knows you. 

Knows exactly where you are and exactly what you need. 

Every thought, before you think it. 

Failings. 

Things we are ashamed to admit, even to ourselves. 

Yet He pursues us with a love that never tires. 

His mercy is not withheld.  And it is never given grudgingly. 

His arms are open to receive. 


Release your breath once more. 

Hand over your worries to the safekeeping of the one who knows your heart. 



He can carry it. 

You cannot. 







Tuesday, July 11, 2017

A Little Youth Sponsor Perspective





I just spent a wonderful and exhausting week in Orlando with an amazing group of people.  As one of the adults working with this group of senior high youth, I have some things to say.

These teens are ready.

They are poised to engage in things that make them (and most of us) uncomfortable.

Things that matter.


They are energetic.

In fact, they are impressively alert at 2 am....


Their sincerity meter functions at full capacity.

They can sniff out hypocrisy, even when the wind is blowing in the opposite direction. 

If you aren't going to be authentic with them, maybe don't be anything at all.



They are diverse.

Some of them creatively share scripture on stage in front of thousands of people.

Some of them eat gum balls for breakfast. 


They are creative.

They generate inspiring ideas that give this 55 year old a renewed hope for the future of God's church


These young people are inquisitive...asking questions that make me pause.

Where do I fit?

Is this what you call "acceptance?"

And with urgency and a hot pocket in hand..."where is the microwave?"


In the absence of a microwave, they are resourceful.

Some even attempting to pop corn with a hotel iron.



They are hard workers.

Pulling invasive weeds from pond's edge in oppressive humidity and a heat that rivaled a convection oven.


DON'T...even for one second...think they aren't paying attention.

Because they can multitask like nobody's business.



These teens wonder.

Do you see me?

Can you hear me?

Do I matter in your life?



They protect their opinions, their integrity, and their people. 

They protect them fiercely.




They are filled with the spirit of adventure. 

They are filled with the spirit of God. 

They are filled with an enormous capacity for pizza.


These teens do the unexpected.




Some abruptly run through town fountains.



Some dance so hard they detach the feet from beloved inflatable penguins.







Some choose to spend the day at an amusement park being a surrogate daughter to the oldest pair of sponsors instead of hanging out with friends.




Some use bandaids. 
Lots and lots of bandaids....








Some worship and sing praises to their creator with an awe-inspiring passion.





Some have nighttime imaginations so wild, they conjure nonexistent strangers in their hotel bathroom at 1 am.











Some inexplicably launch their glow sticks, not the least bit concerned with all the mothers in the room who assume someone is going to lose an eye.

And some of them...
Some of them lay their hands on the shoulders of their sponsors in support and prayer.



Love is a verb. 


These teens generously give love.

And they gently and quietly absorb the love we offer to them.





Some words are hard for them to grasp.

Restraint.

Vegetables.

Curfew.





Some phrases are incomprehensible to them too.

Things like "this is the way it's always been" 

or maybe more accurately, 

"it's never been done, so it can't be done."



To borrow their phrase: these people SEND IT


This group of young people is on a journey with Jesus.

It is a certainty that the future church will look different. 

But knowing these teens, it is also with certainty I say- the message of Jesus is in very good hands.