BE QUIET

I stirred from sleep just as the sun considered making its daily climb. 


If I was going to make the most of daybreak, the time was now. 





I peeked through the ivory blinds. As though also emerging from their cozy slumber, morning colors began painting the lowest points of the horizon.

My shower would have to wait.

Brisk air met my sleepy cheeks as I left the warm cocoon of the retreat center. 

I was thankful, again, for spontaneously buying myself that steel blue hat. Knitted by someone with fingers nimbler than mine, the hat had practically jumped into my purse and opened my wallet at the Souderton Art Jam. My face was cold but my ears were happy!  




Temperatures started plummeting as we arrived the first evening. 

When we described the night as "chilly," Sister Anastasia informed us we were using an Americanized word. We were indoors but Sister Lucy was still wrapped like an enchilada in fabrics designed to keep the cold at bay.  She nodded and smiled enthusiastically to pretty much everything and anything. These women were joy personified. 

The retreat center sits atop a little hill near the convent. Naming some other confusing terminology they'd heard, the language of the States was deemed nonsensical. Both nuns were born in Tanzania and raised with the English diction of proper Brits. Confusing word usage aside, the two could not have extended a warmer welcome. We felt embraced.

This lovely lady is Sister Anastasia.  She drops pearls of wisdom as easily as she shares smiles.

The morning's slippery pathway to the woods held a surprising layer of delicate ice. The frost made the leaves crunchy-wet, causing a cacophony in my ears. 

I would be the only human in sight for over an hour and the sound from my boots was entirely too clamorous for such a sacred and glorious dawn. 

I fruitlessly willed my eager feet to hush.

There is nothing 
like a silent retreat 
to heighten the senses.  

Setting myself apart for some deliberate solitude is the closest I come to acknowledging the vast holiness around me. 









God's presence is everywhere. 

Seeping into every nook and cranny. 

Lighting up the darkest corners.  

Gathering loose ends into tidy bundles of suddenly manageable parcels. 

Reasonable little packages I can hand off to someone remarkably more fit to carry them. 

It seems so obvious, here in the quiet of the convent grounds. 

Yet our self-inflicted human agenda makes devotion to the still small voice nearly impossible when competing sounds begin to vie for attention.

Four rather imposing deer foraged just a short distance from my path. 

They stopped snacking long enough to scrutinize my presence in their woods. 




The small buck tilted his head and considered me as though he, too, was smitten with my fabulous blue hat! 





Fretting that they might regard hunters with the same foolish curiosity, I sharply advised that they move along. They took my suggestion at once, their impossibly fluffy white tails waving a fanciful goodbye. The sound of my voice startled me a little bit too, after so much silence.

There are so many needs weighing on my heart as I lift my eyes above the trees. 

My journey feels encumbered by the heavy load. 

Sometimes blessings come and our burdens are lifted. 

We find we can breathe again. 

But sometimes we pray and pray...and the pain remains. 

There is no release. 

When we humble ourselves and ask, however, we are gifted with his presence.  An unfailing strength, helping us to endure as life's trials rage around us. 

That much is promised. 

We do not walk alone.   

However dubious I sometimes feel about the way prayer changes the unfolding of events, I have been shown clearly that prayer changes me. 

Reconnecting myself to God through gratitude and petition serves as a great reminder of my dependence. 

Some would label my reliance a weakness. 

But my heart begs to differ. 

My greatest freedom comes from fully trusting.

One of my favorite authors, Manning, says it like this.  "We are so caught up in what is urgent, we have overlooked what is essential." 

It is essential today for me to be quiet. 

It is as important as breathing for me to escape for a time from the noise and distraction to cultivate silent communion with God. 

It restores my soul to be still.

The temperature warmed a bit as I returned from my time of walking. The colors of the sky were no longer evident as I searched my winter coat pocket for the key.  

Dorine was not dissuaded by the raindrops.

A steady but gentle rain which would persist for the remainder of the day was just forming in the clouds above. All afternoon, the soothing rhythm would be a calming cadence outside the window of my cozy room.

Popping open a bottle of tea before jumping in the shower, the metal cap drew my attention as it dropped with a clunk onto the table in my bedroom. Rolling around its rim a couple of times, it called to me with its tinny little voice. Finally resting, the lid's message made me smile.

"One does not discover new lands without consenting to lose sight of the shore for a very long time." 

Indeed.

Dear friends coerced to meet their own silence. 

Close your eyes. 

Breathe in deeply, inviting God's mercy.  

Breathe out your weary thoughts. 

They weigh too much. Let them go.

Fill your lungs again, allowing His peace to 

infiltrate every fiber of your being. 

Exhale your fears and doubts. 

Those things that keep you up at night and make 

your weary heart race. 

They have no power over you if you do not permit 

them to take up residence in your too-cluttered mind. 

Inhale the absolute acceptance of your creator. 

He knows you. 

Knows exactly where you are and exactly what you need. 

Every thought, before you think it. 

Failings. 

Things we are ashamed to admit, even to ourselves. 

Yet He pursues us with a love that never tires. 

His mercy is not withheld.  And it is never given grudgingly. 

His arms are open to receive. 

Release your breath once more. 

Hand over your worries to the safekeeping of the one who knows your heart. 

He can carry it. 

You cannot.